haiz..another chance had flew away....my chance of going to europe just passed like that...i rejected it...my father too think its better for me not to go since its still school time and not holiday...owh man....btw...my birthday is less than a month to go...i really dont care of it at all..cause..most of the time no one know..especially my family..ALL I WANT IS JUST ONE THING!! I WANT MY FAMILY TO CELEBRATE IT WITH ME!!! ESPECIALLY MY FATHER!!!! all i get is the same every year...my father is always not there on my birthday..he's always busy..haiz...i relly dont know what to do..i think this birthday thingy doesnt make any different to mo..just got older by 1 year..haiz...